I’m just coming off from a week of vacation, and while I enjoyed the break from work, there’s something more that’s bugging me about having to come back. I spent the week visiting my family and I enjoyed every minute of it. I had originally planned to head down to Houston to visit some friends down there, but at the last minute decided not to spend the money it would have taken to get me there and back. For a minute I’d considered going somewhere I’d never been before, just for a couple of days… to get away from it all. I’d pictured myself walled up in a hotel room with ordered-in food all around me on the bed while I watched TV and vegged by myself for a couple of days. But then, again at the last minute, I decided to spend the time with my family (which, as I already said, turned out to be very enjoyable).
But I didn’t get enough “me” time. I’ve had a lot going on the past few months. Between working full time and going to school full time (including my first summer semester) I haven’t had a lot of free time. A rift had grown up between my best (and really only) friend here in Springfield… and then low and behold he up and moved away this week while I was gone. So I’d really wanted some time to kick back and be by myself. I did get a little of that while I was gone, but it wasn’t enough. And now upon returning to Springfield, I find myself not revived… a little sick… a little bummed… and without my only friend in town. I’ve still got a couple of weeks before my last semester of school starts up, so work is the only thing I’ve got going now.
So maybe between after work and the next couple of weekends I can get some of that “me” time I wanted. I’m not sure why it’s become so important to me lately. I guess I’d like a little disconnected time… where no one knows where I am… my cell phone is turned off… and I can just be alone. I’m not sure evenings and weekends is going to cut it, though.
Hopefully I won’t go too crazy… haha. And maybe I’ll get my “me” time in somehow. But I sure am going to miss my friend… it’s not going to be the same around here without him.
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[...] What to do… what to do. I’ve been talking about my friendless, lifeless state for quite a while. Way back in August 2004 I wrote about the only good friend I’ve had in Springfield moving away. In March 2005 I wrote about all of the people I saw and ignored on a daily basis. I’ve gotten a little better about talking to strangers since then, but I’ve still got a ways to go. In September 2005 I wrote about the social life I used to have… and the strange feeling of emptiness I had upon returning to Springfield after spending a week in Texas with my old friends. In December I touched on my unsociableness as a possible cause of my dislike of Springfield. [...]